lyricalib @ livejournal

..because right now it's a "courtesy" or "pity" job that I can continue to work at over the summer or until I find something better. That's what they told me. To be fair, it's not their fault. I've had this job for two years over four semesters and somehow, this is the first semester that my schedule is really just SO packed that I can't continue to work here after classes start. Nevermind that I WOULD be able to work the "til 7pm" shift that I've been working all four semesters if they hadn't gotten rid of it and decided to keep us open just until 5. Oh well.

I got an email from someone asking a computer question that I didn't know the answer to. Not wanting to admit this to them, I decided I'd be sneaky and forward the message to someone else in the department. They'd tell me the answer, and I'd go back to the original message and reply as if I knew the answer all along. It was the perfect plan! So I typed up the message, "Hey - I have no clue what she's asking about, do you know what we should do here?" I realize this makes me sound incompetent, but that's not the point.. So I finished the message and hit send, but then I realized that I didn't remember ever typing anyone's name in the "to" field. You know why? Because there was already a name there. I hit reply instead of forward. Now she'll never think I'm smart, and I STILL had to forward the email to the other guy to ask for help. Great.

Apparently I have a really hard time paying attention to phone calls, too, and I have a pretty good idea why. Generally I know what to say within a few seconds of them telling me what their problem is, but somehow they feel like they need to give me at least five minutes of details about it before they'll let me get a word in. So while I'm waiting for them to finish their story and let me talk, I sit there not really listening, moving my pen around on my paper that's used to take down their information at the end of the call. I'm not drawing anything in particular - circles, scribbles, lines, anything. After a couple hours yesterday, I noticed that my scribbles had kind of run together and looked like a person. Feeling excited by this, I gave him a cape and propped him up next to my monitor so I could see him. I feel like he's my superhero friend who keeps me from being bored.

Sidenote, my pen ran out of ink.. All I have to write with is a pencil that has never been sharpened so I have three options. I can go sharpen the pencil. I can keep writing with the formerly dark blue (now barely visible) ink pen. Or I can use a sharpie that I saw on my desk that will bleed through the paper and onto the desk. Option #3 it is.

On my lunch break, I went and deposited two checks and some cash, getting ready for the trip to California. Then I went home and saw that one of my roommates had purchased some bathroom cleaner and left it sitting in the living room. So I took this opportunity to clean my shower. It looks nice. :) So after this, I noticed that I had twenty minutes left. I used those twenty minutes to heat up a pepperoni hot pocket and watch pokemon until it was time to go to work. Yay for productivity!

..now back to spending the last two hours of my shift watching youtube.

SHE IS NOT THAT PRETTY, FOR THE RECORD.

So sorry for falling off the face of the earth for a while. Many of you have lost most forms of contact with me, and I apologize for that. I don't want to get too personal about what's going on, but it's pretty substantial and I suppose if anyone wants to talk to me about it, sending me an email is not out of the question. :) lyricalib[at]gmail[dot]com, of course.

I love you guys and thank those of you who have been around for support. I don't want anyone to worry about me, things are going great. School is still my top priority, and I'm doing well. I hope to speak to some of you soon and catch up. <3

When they try to touch you it's time for them to leave.

When someone tells you something that is hard for them to say and makes them feel really vulnerable, that is NOT the time for you to stop talking and just leave them hanging. And the next day when you're like "I'm sorry I fell asleep", you owe it to them to pick back up where you left off rather than avoiding it altogether. :(

I hate when I've got something on my mind but I'm afraid to say it, because I'm not sure how the other person will react. From my perspective, if the roles are reversed and the other person speaks his/her mind, I appreciate it no matter what because they're being themselves. I always just assumed that other people are the same way until I met the one person who isn't. It's hard to censor yourself around someone you want to share everything with. =\

On a different note, I was surprised by a very thoughtful gift today. It's the only thing I got for Christmas that was even remotely personal and I'm extremely happy with it:

( behind the cut for your viewing pleasure )

I'm REALLY excited and have already set everything up and started playing. I'm so glad to get rid of the old box pedal that slips around on the floor and makes this awful clicking noise, and I no longer have to sit in a wooden chair that I stole from my dining room table. :)

Monday:
8:00 Theory III
1:00 Life Fit
2:00 Band
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6:00 Applied Flute

Tuesday:
8:00 Piano III
9:30 Sightsinging/Ear Training III
11:00 Survey Nonwestern Music
1:30 Band

Wednesday:
8:00 Theory III
1:00 Life Fit
2:00 Band
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6:00 Chamber Winds (until 8)

Thursday:
8:00 Piano III
9:30 Sightsinging/Ear Training III
11:00 Survey Nonwestern Music
1:30 Band
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5:00 Flute choir (until 7)

Friday:
8:00 Theory III
12:00 P-Lab
1:00 Life Fit
2:00 Band

Total - 14 credits. LOL, ten classes.
Points of interest: 8am every day. Mostly all music. For the most part easy classes.

I hate insects. :(

Being out of town for my birthday has not been too bad I guess. ;)

So I'm sitting at the helpdesk and I basically can't stop moving. I worked completely through last night, and ended up not sleeping. Well, I had pretty much planned on not sleeping so it wasn't entirely an accident. The point is that I didn't sleep and now I'm sitting here drinking coffee and bouncing my knee and now I'm seeing that caffeine actually does have an effect on me sometimes. I haven't yet decided if I'm going to go home and sleep or if I'll wait until tonight to do so. Hmm.